Hair Falling Out Before Radiation… what the hell?
Saturday December 13th 2008, 12:26 pm
Filed under: Leukemia

Dear Cancer,

You think you can intimidate me by making my hair fall out for no apparent reason? Think again. (Follow the link! Run your mouse over the image!)

That’s called decisive action.


Now playing: ZZ Top – Sharp Dressed Man
via FoxyTunes

New Video: Kellogg’s Special K with Birth Control
Monday December 08th 2008, 3:52 pm
Filed under: Better Than The Machine

Awesome new video from Better Than The Machine:


Sometimes I think about… Ben Franklin.
Sunday December 07th 2008, 2:40 pm
Filed under: Who Knows?

Sometimes I imagine what it would be like if I had to host Benjamin Franklin here in the future. I think about how I’d have to explain Wikipedia and showering. I wonder if he’d like living in the basement.


Now playing: Spoon – The Underdog
via FoxyTunes

One Year Down
Saturday December 06th 2008, 10:17 pm
Filed under: Leukemia

One year ago, I was diagnosed with pre-B cell acute lymphoblastic leukemia. I still have two-and-a-half years to go, including radiation treatment in two weeks. Those two-and-a-half years don’t seem so impossible after this one, though.

Thanks for all of your support; it made the last year possible. Thanks for everything.


Now playing: Weezer – The World Has Turned And Left Me Here
via FoxyTunes

Ink & Jeremy Make
Friday December 05th 2008, 5:03 pm
Filed under: Friends

A buddy of mine from high school named Jeremy Make is appearing in a new film called Ink in 2009. Jeremy seems to have been very successful getting roles in the past few years, most familiarly to people in Denver as the spokesman for Bellco Credit Union in a series of teevee and radio ads.

Ink looks very cool… and creepy. Check out the trailer and a little blurb below:

“Ink”, a film about the people who come out at night and give us dreams and nightmares, is a Sci-Fi/Fantasy Action Thriller from filmmaker Jamin Winans. For more info visit:


Now playing: Queen – Somebody to Love
via FoxyTunes

Paralyzing Fear of Paralysis
Friday December 05th 2008, 4:57 pm
Filed under: Who Knows?

I have had an overwhelming fear of paralysis for several years. I’m not sure what the actual name of this phobia is, since anytime I try to look it up (as on the (fun?) Phobias Page), I am caught up in information about how phobias themselves can paralyze people. I’m familiar with that, too, I suppose, but I’m also quite specifically terrified of being physically paralyzed. I’d appreciate it if anyone could tell me what this is called.

Before I left for college, I saw a special on TV about sleep paralysis, a condition I felt I had experienced in high school but had not previously had a name for. For a couple of years before and into college, I was convinced that I was having frequent episodes in which my sleep cycle was ending, and in which my mind was waking up but my body was not.

I don’t know if this was actually happening often, or if it was simply a terrible reoccurring nightmare (or, perhaps, both), but after 9/11 and the Williams Street Dormitory fire my freshman year of college, these episodes got progressively worse. I would imagine that my mind had been awoken during a fire or other emergency and that I could not move out of the way. I could hear ambient sound in my room. I could hear and feel myself breathing, but could not take control. In fact, if I tried to change my breathing patterns, I would feel an inescapable chain tightening around my chest–I would start to hyperventilate.

It took me a couple of years, but these episodes left me alone for awhile. Even with everything else, I don’t think it happened at all in the hospital (this is very different than the psychosis I experienced there in April), but I’ve noticed that since being home in May, this situation has been coming up again. Especially in the past few weeks. There are times when I’m clearly dreaming–nightmares like lying on a subway bench, unable to move while people are passing me by, and I can’t ask for help. It’s also been happening when I can’t tell if I’m asleep, though, and this is scarier. No matter how many times it happens, I am always overwhelmed by a feeling that this time it will not go away. I can hear my parents checking in on me, and I just want to say “wake me up!” but I keep breathing slow, unable to move, let alone speak.

It’s awful. As scouring the Internet seems to have turned up less info than I’d hoped, I think I’ll try talking to my doctors about it soon…

Now playing: Travis – Love Will Come Through
via FoxyTunes

Early Off The Steroids… For Good.
Thursday December 04th 2008, 2:19 pm
Filed under: Leukemia

“Reid’s done enough Dexamethasone for good, and for whatever reason, he doesn’t seem to be able to tolerate it anymore. We can reasonably stop the course without long term negative problems. Let’s stop playing with fire.”

–Dr. Garrington, my oncologist, (paraphrased).

My sugars have been the worst they’ve ever been in the past few days, I’m feeling crummy, and happily welcome this reprieve. I’ll still be on Prednisone for five days a month every month during Maintenence, but hopefully that will be easier to tolerate.


Bill Richardson’s Missing Beard: Obama “Deeply Disappointed With The Loss”
Wednesday December 03rd 2008, 4:00 pm
Filed under: Attack Of The Internet!, Liberty!

I can’t figure out how to embed this video, but I thought it was fun. Facial hair humor by the President Elect might just be the best thing ever. Check it out:

Bill Richardson’s Missing Beard: Obama “Deeply Disappointed With The Loss” (VIDEO)

Surprisingly, not from The Onion, although maybe there’s a statement to be made there about FOX News.


Prop 8: The Musical!
Wednesday December 03rd 2008, 2:28 pm
Filed under: Attack Of The Internet!

Jason just sent this to me. It features lots of funny comedians and actors and is really quite awesome:

See more Jack Black videos at Funny or Die

I think it’s time to get BTTM’s Gay Marriage Propaganda plastered all over the place. We’ve been for gay rights longer than anyone else… two years!


I finished reading the Steve Martin book of which I receieved 13 copies.
Wednesday December 03rd 2008, 1:20 am
Filed under: Sodapopcornculture

I only finished one of them, as I assume all the copies of Born Standing Up by Steve Martin I received end very similarly. I hadn’t been intentionally avoiding the book because it made me feel predictable (“why, here’s a book Reid would like need to get better!”), I just figured with odds like that, I couldn’t very well hide from the book, and would eventually come to read it in just the right way at just the right time.

As I’ve been working to get myself back into my own comedy, this was clearly the right time.

I’ll admit that, over the years, while I like biographies, I haven’t tended to like auto-biographies. And while I’ve liked everything I’ve ever read of Steve Martin’s (of particular notes, his novel The Pleasure of My Company and his play “Picasso At The Lapin Agile”), for years, I made deliberate anti-theatrical (or maybe anti-critical) effort to avoid reading about the lives of artists I truly respect as artists. I wanted to respect their pieces on their own, not needing to force an understanding from their lives onto their work. I wish I could say this was worthwhile, but I now think it’s much more an unconscious reaction to certain literature teachers I “learned from” over the years, who tried to impose things that simply don’t exist onto a story.

Of course, this led me to look very foolish several times, as Joe and Vickie can attest about my formerly pathetic knowledge of Freddy Mercury, or who exactly he was killing in Bohemian Rhapsody. Ruis can most definitely attest that it took me a while to understand that art is a community, and that everyone brings something important.

Sometimes, when we’re lucky, we open ourselves up to the very best artists who can then continue to teach us things about their craft that allows us to enjoy them in a different–yet incredibly familiar feeling–way. That is what Born Standing Up is. Martin makes it very, very easy to open up to him, but that doesn’t mean that what he’s saying lacks any importance. It is his important, scientific, look at a mind that not only ushered in main-stream modern comedy, but was able to redefine just exactly what comedy is to generations of comedians who didn’t know it needed redefining in the first place. It is a reference book about what it is I want to do, just in the same way that Seinfeld’s Comedian was an ultimatum that many simply can’t face: comedy is hard work, and if you’re not willing to put in the work, you will not be a success.

Martin pulls you in to his thought process (“Who wouldn’t want to be in show business?”), he writes as if you might just have been along for this or that anecdote, but, most importantly everything dances off the page, a performance in itself–only this time, a performance and a lesson in reality. Do what you love, and make sure to do it the best you can, because even if you love it, it ain’t gonna be easy.

I rate Born Standing Up by Steve Martin 5 out of 5 something arbitrary, because it all made sense in the end, even if life doesn’t always seem to be moving in that direction for some very long periods of time… from time to time.